i owe it all to my 2 bodyguards. came over and kept me accompanied, never left me out of sight, brought me out to do happy things, all without a clue of whats going on with me. THANK YOU!

if it's affecting me this much for me to make such a drastic decision, it must have meant quite tremendously to me. but then again why wouldn't it? and why did i ever allow that to happen? siannnnnnnnn.