i can't wait for christmas!!! something special is happening :)))

i have decided. it's make or break. i may appear indifferent towards this issue in particular but that is probably the furthest from the truth. i guess what didn't kill me before, had made me a hell lot stronger. instead of running away like i've always done, i'm now dealing with it straight on, face to face. i've grown so much, i'm so proud of myself :)